Okay I had a lot of spam comments to put up with. Those are the only comments I ever get these days.
This blog was supposed to be an easy way for anyone to catch up with me. Know what’s the latest. Registering with my blog is optional. You can still read it if you didn’t sign up. Hell, my tweets and instagram are open to the public too. There was always the question of why continue with a blog if no one reads it. It’s a very real issue. It is entirely possible that i’m doing all this for nothing. No one will want to know about me, not enough to actually read any of this. They’d rather make their own conclusions about me and assume they know me. Anyone who stumbles upon this certainly wouldn’t be impressed with what they find. In the past, it helped serve me as a reminder of who I was. And then a lot of my posts got deleted. I really miss those posts. Now I just trudge my way on as I always have, maybe it’s because it’s all I ever remembered doing, all I’ve ever known. Yet I don’t seem to be headed anywhere. A lot of people told me i’m still dwelling over the fallouts that I had. No one likes constantly reminding themselves of bad things that happened.
What you did to me doesn’t just go away after a while. You affected my whole life. I’m always going to live with wondering who I can trust. You’re going to meet a lot of people in this world. Everyone has their own problems. You can’t expect everyone to care about you. In fact, there are gonna be a lot of people who have to step on you to get what they want. Everyone wants something. There are gonna be people who only talk to you when they want something from you. What does your family want from you? Are you as important to your family as they are to each other? Are you a priority, and if so, to whom are you a priority?
Colleagues will not want your friendship. They have their own. When the people who you trust start conversation with an instruction when they talk to you, or only talk to you when they need you to do something for them, then you have to reevaluate your relationships.
A lot of things are going to happen at work. You are expected to cope with it. You have to meet demands and be productive. But who’s going to be there for you through it all?
Everyone has a professional life, but not everyone has a personal life. They may think they also have a personal life but it’s actually a mess. You don’t have to be imperfect to disappoint someone. You just have to make a decision about who is important to you. Who you wanna be there for. And that person who doesn’t make your list – he’s gonna be disappointed.
Humans were probably put here to live with each other, and find a way to coexist. But it’s clear now that they’re not here to help each other. There are going to be people who know you’re in trouble. There are going to be people who help you because of that. And the rest, why bother helping them?