Post 236

Posted by azreen | Posted in Uncategorized | Posted on 12-06-2014

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Last year I had the worst Hari Merdeka ever. This year, no matter how badly my raya or merdeka day goes, i’m still going to celebrate my birthday, eat food, and watch a movie. What I realized is that circumstances are really difficult, and rather than allowing myself to be a slave to them and be defeated by the memories of how it went last year, I should take every chance I have on those public holidays to do things that I’ve longed to do. Everyone else will just have to understand.
Another thing that’s important is that there were people who, throughout my difficult times this past year, actually talked to me and treated me like a human. Many of them only spoke to me a few times, and did not contact me following that. I want to acknowledge that there were a few people who showed some kindness to me, doing it without anything to gain, without any obligation, and sparing the time despite the difficult circumstances. They of course have their own lives and probably won’t be whatsapping with me, I’ve learnt not to expect so much. I know now, that because I have experienced these interactions, that I don’t want to settle for being someone that you only call when there’s something i’m useful for. I think it means that I have a chance at real human interaction, and I think it’s worthwhile for me to look for it. Everyone sees me as this hermit desperate to hide himself from being judged, who’s not worth including in activities, but I shouldn’t care about that, and I should just do what I want because I feel like i’m worth it.

Comments posted (13)

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ñýíêñ çà èíôó!

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thank you.

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ñïñ.

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ñïñ!

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áëàãîäàðåí!!

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ñïñ!!

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good info!

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tnx for info!

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ñïñ.

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áëàãîäàðñòâóþ.

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ñïñ!

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good info.

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