I am so sorry for what I did. I was in severe panic after I realized my mistake. Jun Ee told me to calm down cause no one took it seriously. I don’t know why I do such stupid things. It’s because I wasn’t thinking that I ended up in this mess.
I don’t know. I was tired, I was hungry, I was super stressed about my whereabouts being known by people whom I didn’t get a chance to explain to on my own, being in this lonely situation without anyone to talk to (in person), a certain flooring situation, garbage disposal, the state of my room. There were so many things going on, it’s impossible for me to know what exactly is the cause for my amazingly bad judgement. Because anyone would tell me that i’ve always been like that, and it has nothing to do with so many things piling up at once. I clearly can’t cope with everything that’s going on. Everyone can see that. Everyone knows it. I obviously need someone to help me with things. Like i’ve said many times in previous posts, people like to be in my life because they want to watch a train wreck.
Every day I dread tomorrow. There’s just so much uncertainty about everything all the time.