My 2013 in review. Easy. It’s without a doubt the worst year in my whole life. Ever. Totally sucks. And i’m hating every second of it right now. I went from taking photos and having lunch with friends to no one speaking to me. Forget about shows that I liked getting cancelled. I have no reason to watch any other shows anymore. Do i even have a reason to do anything else anymore? Worst part is that everything bad that happened in this year is going to constantly follow me for every subsequent year in my whole life. This year was just so bad that it put me under all this tragedy that i’ll never be able to get out from. I hate being me. All i can do now is watch people sitting at their tables with their loved ones, enjoying their food and each other’s company, talking about everything they accomplished this year, spending their new year’s eve the way they want to spend the rest of their following year. I’ll just be here, watching in envy as the rest of the world goes by, everyone has a life that they built for themselves. and they get to reap their rewards and share it with the people who care about them.
I know that this is my life and I can change it. Everything that’s happened made me really sad. A lot of the time i’m really numb. But now and again, i’m going to be angry too. Call me a @#$% if you want, i’ve been called everything else. I don’t know how else i’m supposed to react. I don’t know how else i’m supposed to be. I’m a mess, and I doubt that anything’s going to make it better.