Post 206

Posted by azreen | Posted in Uncategorized | Posted on 19-02-2013


Have you ever asked this in your relationship? “Do you want me, or are you just bored?”

I was told once, that I tend to layan people too much, and then when I told my sister about this, she said to me that I tend to allow people to manipulate me. What on earth? Allow? Why do you think it’s called manipulating then?  Read the rest of this entry »

Post 205

Posted by azreen | Posted in Uncategorized | Posted on 18-02-2013


Okay, this isn’t something new, and most people should know this about me, but i’m very emotional right now. If by now you still don’t know how to click on read more, then I don’t know why I should say that you care about me at all. Read the rest of this entry »

Post 204

Posted by azreen | Posted in Photos | Posted on 10-02-2013


Post 203

Posted by azreen | Posted in Uncategorized | Posted on 09-02-2013


I was using posterous to autopost to this blog via mobile up until last year, cause when it came to resizing images and stuff I didn’t have much freedom of options. I haven’t been using the posterous mobile app for quite a while, both because I was having problems with the app itself for which I didn’t recieve any support even after inquiring via twitter, and because I was too busy to open my laptop to the needed edits to whatever post that I did through the mobile app. But everything seems fine now I guess. I’m enjoying posterous for itself, rather than just relying it as a means to post to my blog from my phone, this is of course after I had to delete and reinstall the app on my phone. The best thing about imgur is that is supports gifs, and that’s what my gifs that i’ve been using on my blog have been subsisting by. Not that i’m posting any for today. Also I have to address the broken image links on my previous posts. I’ll get to them eventually. I don’t know what happened to the links, and I don’t know what happened to the images, it’s actually quite sad for me, but i’ll just have to delete each of the links. Images available to view after the jump.

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Post 202

Posted by azreen | Posted in Photos | Posted on 08-02-2013


I want a new theme! I have no time to make my own from scratch, but I haven’t found any premades that I like either. In the past I used to make new themes for myself and switch up every month, partly because I thought I would continue having all the time in the world and also because I didn’t want to admit that a lot of my themes I was only deceiving myself to like. I’m glad this theme was something I was able to first of all find, and second of all actually serve it’s purpose quite well, and I didn’t mind sticking to it for so many years. I’m sure there are many people who would differ but nothing I can do about it now, cause I can’t find a good theme to replace it and even if I do, I think everything will end up getting completely messed up, especially my tags, dates, categories, and everything in the sidebar. I want to make good use of the “more” tag so that it’s easier to scroll through posts, so i’ll try and keep posts that have long or seemingly long-winded content trimmed to only the first paragraph before the tag, and hopefully my blog will look more tidy.

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Post 201

Posted by azreen | Posted in Uncategorized | Posted on 02-02-2013


I just feel so panicked all the time, and everyone keeps saying i’ve been behaving so abnormally. I’m shaking right now, i’m so scared, i’m so exhausted but I can’t seem to fall asleep. When I close my eyes I just go back to that trauma. I feel like crying but there’re no tears left. I feel so ashamed, so humiliated. I don’t ever want to wake up. Everyone ran off so quickly, everyone has somewhere to be, but I can’t escape this constant fear. This is your comfort zone, but that’s where the magic happens, and I don’t think I can make it there.