October 2010

Post 49

I guess I can see why people have such a problem with celebrities or celebrity gossip. I know that certain reality stars didn't actually accomplish anything in their lives and don't really deserve any recognition. Whether they have jobs, or they just peddle petty drama on magazine covers, they're still amusing to me. And that's all. Just because I talk about them doesn't mean I look up to them. Quite the opposite in fact. But I understand that there are people in this world with real lives, real problems and real jobs, who don't want to waste their time paying attention to meaningless things. They have things to do, and yet somehow the media manages to still shove down their throats things that they don't want to know. They wish they didn't know. They have people that they look up to that they want to talk about instead, if they had the time. It's funny how people who endlessly seek attention can actually force it out of people they don't even know. In school, I have been approached, or it came up in conversation, about how after a certain point I was a little less me. A little lackluster, a little less enthusiastic, a little less perky. Different. Not a complete change, but like how Katie went from being an individual to becoming the better half of TomKat. She was still the same person doing and saying the things she always did, but somehow not as fascinating anymore. In fact, seeming a little more towards tragic. Law offenders go to correctional facilities, rehab, community service. But bullies, you have to go about your daily routines, and still see their faces everyday. Still pass by them, still hear them talk about you. I don't think I wanted retribution, but at the same time, I was never really able to go back to how I was before.

Post 48

Ohmygod! I don't care about being in your clique! Please! I don't care about reputation or anything! If you don't want me to be in your clique then great! Cause I never want to be in a clique anyway! I am so not threatened by you guys ignoring me cause there're lots of people who probably do that to you. Talk to me, don't talk to me, do whatever you want. Don't feel obligated to include me just cause you think i'm so desperate to be as famous as you. I don't want to be another one of your minions to do your dirty work for you! Plan your own parties, steal people's boyfriends yourself, sneak into all the clubs you want, hook up with anyone you want, do whatever you want just leave me alone. I'm so sick of being part of your stupid schemes. You're always plotting, and for some reason it always has to involve me. Get your own manual labour! I don't understand why you have to manipulate someone in your attempts to gain more fame and publicity. Why can't you just do it yourself? Doesn't that say something about what you really are? I mean, if you want to be fake then fine, but don't go around doing all this superficial hedonistic stuff and act all innocent as if you don't know that you're being fake. Don't act like you're offended by the things I do, and use that as an excuse to tell me off when everyone knows that you're just so scared of being seen talking to someone not 'cool'. I don't care if i'm not 'cool' enough to hang out with your group, I don't even want be that, whatever that word means. Just own up to it, just admit that the reason you want to alienate me is because you think i'm not good for your reputation or popularity. But you can't even be honest about that, and to me? I don't know how you're going to get what you want, or step on all the people you're endlessly trying to manipulate. I don't care how pathetic my life is, I don't need to climb any ladders. I don't think I have to play nice and follow the rules just to hang out with your group. I really don't care how awesome you people think you are, if there's something that I don't like, i'll just say what's on my mind. I don't understand why you feel like you're doing me a favour by having me in your group. If you feel like putting up with me is such a chore why don't you just say so? There's no point me hanging out with you if you don't even want to hang out with me. It's unfortunate for me, but if you guys are happier without me, then i'll gladly leave. I admit, I sometimes like having things my way, and I can see why people can get ticked off. I don't like having my actions and my words under inspection by the public, but if people are going to say things about me I can't do anything about it. You can't please everyone. Maybe for me it's nice to be in your group of friends, but i'm not here to please you, i'm always just going to be myself.

Post 47

I don't see why I have to put up with such fame-obsessed people. If you want to go to parties, it's your problem, why you must tell me to look for a clutch for you to bring? Who ask you to RSVP if you don't even have your full wardrobe yet? Those people that always have to step on other people on their way up to don't-know-what. What is it that they want? They know that they manipulate others to get what they want. They bully people but make it look like innocent favours. As if they are in such dire need of help. They only go to those 'smaller' people when they need something. Obviously if you treat people like that, people aren't going to like you. But then you just make it look like i'm so jealous of your popularity, that's why I don't like you. Or you just say that I'm so desperate to be as famous as you or I want to be your best friend. Cause i'm so pathetic, at the 'bottom of the totem pole' that i deserve to be looked down on. If i'm mean to someone it's because I don't like them, not because I think that i'm more popular than them. I just wish you'd leave me alone. But still, every single thing you do on your endless mission for glamour always involves me. Do whatever you want just do it without dragging me into it!

Post 46

Everyone has plans this weekend except me!?! Oh well who cares it's not like i've had my laser hair removal. Someone please tell me why my face isn't firm and perky, and it looks kindof puffy and a bit saggy instead. I don't drink honest-to-god. I also happen to be clean from any pharmaceuticals. Right now anyway. I feel like most people who complain aloud about insecurities, most commonly saying repeatedly that their looks, or pictures of themselves, are ugly; actually sound narcissistic to me when they say that. I feel like most people who say things like that also simultaneously take a lot of pictures of themselves, and care a lot about their looks. Read More »Post 46